Dude... you write with such passion and depth in your work that is really so fing hard to find without lived experience. I might have absolutely no idea what you went or are going though. But I just wanna say. You will win this! Keep up the belief and all the besto to stay sober. Love your poems btw. Me as well as many others are w ya in this journey, you ain't alone fam :) Keep up the good work!