I’m sorry to myself for thinking there was still a chance for me to open my heart to someone else, because I can’t. And even if I could, I still wouldn’t. There has only ever been one person I could truly see in this life— oh God, even in death. She is the only person I have ever wanted. I don’t want to betray myself by forcing my heart to love somebody else when it has always been her, I have loved her my entire life. every day, every hour, every second. Yesterday, today, and even tomorrow.