Observe. I have never been a logical person. I feel before I think picking at old wounds, pulling at loose threads. But I am always watching myself do it, at least and this, I'm told, is how science works. Question. Is it possible to become something you are not, if you want it badly enough? Hypothesize. There is a version of me that does not feel this way. Experiment. I change the variables: move cities, cut my hair, fall in love. I strip away parts of my self and label what I find. Study it under a microscope until it stops looking like anything at all. If I follow the steps, surely, this time will be different. Analyze. Something has changed. I'm not sure if it was me.