For the first time in my life I tried to open my eyes But I couldn't. It was strange That feeling Not really knowing what was happening Until I realized My eyes Were swollen shut From all the heavy tears That had flooded them And streamed down my pale face. My throat aching Burning from all the screaming. It was a miracle That I had even managed To sleep for two hours. And when I finally woke I wished I hadn't. Because for a brief moment There was peace. Then reality came crashing back And with it The memories The pain And the unbearable truth That nothing had changed.