Sitting on the porch by myself. Watching people stroll by. Dogs wagging their tails, just happy to be outside. I listen to music to distract myself. All of a sudden, my heart beats faster. The air gets thicker. Why do I feel like this? Nothing is happening. I recite the lyrics in my head, while someone steals control of my hands. Trying to cut through my hands with my nails. I don't feel a single cell getting ripped off. I don't feel the blood dripping from my palms. I don't feel anything. The air gets thicker. I can no longer breathe. I didn't know I could choke. I didnt know I could choke on a feeling...