I eat up attention the way the moon swallows the sunlight Leaving me dark, swept up in the shadows Which is where I prefer to be If I had a bigger appetite I'd eat the sun morning noon and night But it's almost like I can feel its warm rays, burning inside me Trying to escape Sometimes I want them to escape But that's never been a part of the plan I put up with the pain so I can live comfortably in the dark Along with the other beaten down misfits Who maybe once had a chance I know I did. But you wouldn't understand I apologize Go about your evening Stick to the streetlights It's safer that way. My bed is falling apart and it's a reflection of my state of mind I like everything compartmentalized It makes me feel better At least something does My life is a mess. On the outside, everything looks just fine But on the inside I watch it fall apart piece by peace What if there's nothing left of me soon? What if I die? Where will I go? Is heaven a construct? Made for little kids and scared adults I think things keep repeating themselves over and over The same exact lesson until you finally get it right The same old Billy Taylor until you stop picking on him You evolve. You become a better version of yourself But that's not always an easy pill to swallow Sometimes you can't help but choke on the truth Nothing ever comes easy It just comes, and we decide what to do with it Easy and hard, it's all a matter of how you perceive things And perception is just reality distorted