Im starting to accept it wasn't an accident Not after 6 months long Not when I was scared I was in the wrong Not when i wasn't allowed to mention it Not when I was held down unable to sit not when I was told im lucky How could I be when I feel so yucky After Asking if I was scared He said that only he would care I felt like I might be in danger But I thought it could only be from a stranger You will have to lay Schools important why should you get a sick day I love you so much but beware Theres Lots of bad people are out there Don't pretend you don't want this You know you enjoy its little kiss Ill hold your hair out of your face You know it only wants one place Oh it hurts im sorry Ill ask your friend dont worry Omg im jealous that its not me She says until her bottoms are at her knee I tried to keep you safe im thankful it only happened twice for you to be okay I paid the price I wish it never happened to you I regret it all the time if only you knew Its going to be okay he says as I miss my mum Ill make you happy are you excited to *** The more it happened the more I had accepted I got used to it because he couldn't be suspected I started to not survive without crying To this day I have kept lying No one needs to waste time on it im fine After all I was only nine I was NINE and dependent on his words They stuck in my head like little birds But after a while he was sick of me I couldn't make him feel glee So I was left traumatized im not even a bit surprised Being frightened by love is one thing Being terrified is another Here i stand holding our souls The fire in us burns like dark coals