If we met now I know you would be completely different, I know you would be smiling and you would glow like an angel, you would talk to everyone and have so many friends. But if we met on this very day, this very month, this very year, you would wonder why I have faded lines on my thighs and wrist, you would wonder why I have many alarms to wake up and why I never leave my room. If we met, you would wonder why I do what I do, why inam the way I am, you would drop your first tear as you look at me and be so hurt that someone hurt you from another world. If we met, you would wonder why I dont eat, you would wonder why I stay up late and sleep in class, you would wonder why I flinch when a guy even starts to talk to me, you would wonder why I dont smile as bright as you. If we met, you wouldn't judge me, you wouldn't hate me, you would just be curious, curious about why I have so many medical conditions and meds I take everyday, why I ignore my mother's words and do it anyways. You are so pretty like an angle darling, you are me in another universe and I am me from the depths of this horrid place in my mind. Darling dont look at me with pity, im dont pity myself. Darling I dont wear long sleeves anymore and I take my mother's advice and I wear shorts even in the fall, Darling dont hate me I swear im starting to heal, I just need more time. You are me I am you but your not in another universe. You are in my head and a doppelganger in my mirror or in my mother's eyes that I cant see out of and trust me when she told us we are beautiful this morning, it was the first time I believed her. We are healing, you are my childhood soul and im telling, you can come out of the dark now.