if you want the truth fine I'm not okay I haven't been for a long time but I kept smiling kept saying I was fine because that's want everyone wants to hear but I can't do it anymore I'm tired, tired of pretending tired of holding it all in tired of acting like everything doesn't feel like it's falling apart I wake up everyday and put on this mask on my face and I'm so sick of it no one sees it no one asks because I made it easy for them not to but I can't keep doing this I'm not fine and I don't know how to fix it