I want to end it, I want to end my pain. It hurts, it hurts so much that my body’s lost control, gone numb. My air gets blocked and it’s hard to breathe. I want to cry yet my eyes are too dry— maybe they’ve lost their tears. I want to shout my misery, yet there is no one to lean on. I want to give it all up, yet I’m a coward afraid of death. I want to believe, yet I’ve already paid my price in belief. I’m just a shell that can mimic a human— I have already lost my soul.