Home was never home which is why I'm not there The further I travel the less that I care But I don't, I care so much it kills me Im searching and wandering for things that will thrill me Capture my mind maybe slow it down Im hiding behind long hours and small little towns Im hiding with new friends and unfamiliar faces Im getting lost in courses and unfamiliar places To forget about home would surely ease my mind But I need more experiences more memories more time Im the odd one out ,the black sheep of the herd I drown out my feelings with music and words Im the happiest person ,I can light up a room And run home before my mask can break through I think I miss my family and how easy it could be To be comfortable with the abuse and not being free Comfortability is something that kills the soul It keeps us in place, stops us shining like gold So i broke the cycle,im in a new place I feel everything new but I still don't feel safe Im scared and numb,I thought I'd feel better But doesn't matter the place or the people or weather Its not where you are its how you cope I need new lenses, a new mind a new scope Im happy most days but nights are the worst My mind overflows, to be empathetic is a curse I understand why people act the way the do Im great at making excuses "it's just what people do" So I'll travel again, further away this time Keep making excuses and keep being blind