(The perfect smiles The enviable laughs The all so heartwarming looks I can feel the fourletterword Oozing through their lives) oh my heart aches every time my eyes drift to yours it is so unfortunate i cant bear it this new, overwhelming feeling– thatlookthatsmilethatlaugh but never at me. i try and i try to stop my eyes from drifting away to yours but im my own fool i fail shes so pretty shes so full of life she deserves it all(i know) but this new, overwhelming feeling– rips off this glass that i created (fromfakelaughsfromforcedprettythoughts). so i dare glance at this monstrosity staring back at me. all i hear is the doubt from all the pretty polished words they say, to me, i wonder if they ever even mean it i dont know(i am the mess) i dont know if i want to know(i am the mess) i miss him. he was(never) mine. but i miss him i want– to be yours.