You're awake. I know you're awake. I know because you stare into my eyes. Its 3 am and you're awake..... right? I sit next to you in class, jokes and fun, smiles at its brightest. You're awake. I know you're awake I feel you in my arms as I hug you, as you hold me like you would never leave. You're awake.....right? I know you're awake I just made plans for Saturday to skate board with you at the park and we can finish the night off with a cringe musical..... you're awake.... right? YOU'RE AWAKE..... COME ON WAKE UP!!!!! but its all a dream, you never woke up, you're deep asleep, eyes closed, 6 feet under, you missed the snow last year, just wanted to let you know. You're asleep but I dream of when we would play make believe. When we would pretend, having wings like we could fly. We made a promise, my first promise I have ever wanted to break, pinkies crossed never thought it would hurt this bad, my first promise said, my first promise you whispered, my first promise stolen, used as a token a trick a lie said to my face and I am force to keep it, we locked it, I dont want to keep this promise but I vowed to never break a promise, a promise of a promise. You whispered into my ear with your pinky out "promise me if one of us dies first, the other must continue living, no matter how hard it gets" And I replied "no matter how hard it gets? I promise" And then you were gone, and nothing felt like living for but your promise always rings in my head, in the darkest of nights as I hold a blade or a lighter or a handful of pills that I cant swallow at once, I made a promise. A promise that wasnt mine. ~ sanit