I used to twirl I kept twirling At the thought of yours With sorrow ... I left I kept leaving At the thought of yours With scorn ... I breathe I kept breathing At the thought of yours With sigh But all in vain... I mumbled I kept mumbling At the thought of yours With counts reciting within 46,45,44 As I counted back .... I remember these nights gleaming Sleepless moonlight reflection beaming While your absence was seeming .... 41,40,39 As I count back I remember those wordings cruel Spoken to shovel Down my throat to navel. ... 30,29,28 As I count back. I remember my withering That used to be a bothering Only to end up gathering. .. 20,19,18 As I count back. You matter But all you did was shatter For my blood to splatter. . 10,9,8 As I count back. 'Cause of you, life was a comedy With a heap of tragedies While your notions engulfed me with alchemy. . 6,5,4 As I count back. The way you glance At my eyes so trance When my baggage under them screamed just "collapse". . 3,2,1 As I sigh, I ponder How counts used to excuse Only for it to deduce my amuse But now I look at you.... In the mirror so well. Grieving, Hoping to find you. Midst the mayhem you created. *Losing yourself once again Only to be found again Isn't that what you wanted All along, lil Alien?*