It just leaves me, After holding on with all that I can. Gone beyond my strength to endure. The thing I've been holding on to, Keeping it for myself, For my secret place, So that only my ears can hear. But today I had to let it go, Be free in the moment And stop fighting what's natural. Everyone has their days, Where holding on can't be done, And letting go makes you lighter. I've tried to hold back, Keep the real me to myself, Because once released, The room shifts and the air changes. Why, because I held it in too long. When I knew the best way to love myself is to release. But I thought of everyone else in the room first, and changed my mind. Decided to not be selfish but meek. A decision that took to long decide, Yes, I'm still meek but now selfish. Because I let it go, I thought about me for once, And did what had to be done, I watch others live in their release, And today is my day. But once I let it go, I understood the maturity in holding on. Letting go disrupted the day, Cause daring eyes, And laughs I wasn't suppose to hear. But it's done, I did it and now I'm lighter. But the next time it leaves me, I'll just say, Excuse me, I farted. 😂