What do I do When my heart bleeds And I cannot stem the bleeding? It's been years Since You carves my heart from my chest I never knew what hit me You were my protector And yet You destroyed me Because you are afraid I was going to be better then you Isn't that the point? Have your child/grandchild Have more then you ever did? I hear your stories Of your past And you riddled mine With just as pain And trauma Because you couldn't stand it That I wasn't broken Like you were You wanted me And then threw me away Because you thought I was better I would be more successful More put together But I'm not Why do family do this? I trusted you, And I regret it now Always will I didn't need to experience What you did The pain The drugs The alcohol I was one drugs at birth Because you only cared That my father was stuck with you And then grandmother got me After you died And her trauma Was so much worse "I wish I wasn't here" I've said it so many times Why Why Why? Please tell me why Why did I need to suffer The same way you suffered?