I wish for one thing Truly One more conversation Civil Truthful Enlightening Would you be honest? Would you tell me why? Would you justify yourself? To me? To them? You had five of us, and hated us all I wish I could ask you, Why But I never will be able to You died And you're not even waiting for me Or watching over me I've almost died, Three times Near death is what they said And I've been told That's when you see the Anscetors Who follow you, wait for you I expected you to be there But you weren't And when I asked Those who could speak to those On the othersise They said you weren't even looking How am I supposed to take that? I guess you were telling the truth When you told me 'I never wanted you' 'I kept you to keep your dad around' 'Go away' Would you even sit down to talk? Would you arrive? Would we have coffee? Would you stomach seeing me? Looking like you Would you even speak to me? Or just be there for the free coffee? To excuse your behavior? To justify my hurt? And then make me feel guilty? And tell me it's all my fault? That I ruined your life? What kind of conversation would we have? Would it be a conversation? Or would it just be you Pretending to be in the right And I was in the wrong For being a child Who wanted to love you? I wonder I wished upon a star A star so far That my wish took to long in transit To be granted I guess thats the issue with Wishing upon stars It takes to long to reach the star They can't hear us So far away Why do I still send my wishes To the stars? What can they do for me now? I can't even have this final conversation With you And yet , I continue To wish upon the stars As if things will change.