As I sit here and think about everything that you stood for, it pains me to know that your dreams will still only remain dreams, as you're no longer here with me and I hate it so very much, I lost you way too soon and I don't want to continue this illusion anymore, I drift off into the memories of what it used to be as these days seem to be getting harder by the very minute, why must I suffer so much, was losing you a lesson I had to learn in this lifetime, if so the only thing I have learned is that I'm still not ready to let you go after all these years, it's still not fair and I hate everything even more now, God I hate that you're gone.