Do words mean everything? Its not physical but it hurts It hurts so badly it effects someone in a way that they don't know how to even function properly I froze My words froze I froze I couldn't speak I couldn't move Just eye movement And constant tears Never ending tears My body is full of rage So i put it all on a page The page is ugly but it made me feel less caged I cried I cried in my own silence My own silence of harsh words that effect me words that mean nothing I don't understand what i did wrong My therapist says i should learn from how mum copes and moves on But she doesn't know my reality is my dreams My dreams are my fatality Cutting is my dopamine Dopamine is my enemy My enemy is the guilt after 5 seconds of pleasure. You will never change Nor will my attitude towards you.