I could never, Do what you had done The ache The sorrow The loss How could you? I never understood The abandonment The drugs The pain Then, you left Mother, Why? The soul of a child Left broken and in pieces Left with unanswered questions Of why you left And why I remain Why am I here? To bare the pain you refused to handle? I don't love, I'm afraid I'm not careful Everyday.... Hurts like a knife to the skin Slow Clean Mother, Why? I loved you As a child does Pure Unconditional And you Now gone Without a word Not a single goodbye "You should have known better" I didn't I was a child The drugs became your friends As did the alcohol I was left To wait To rot In a broken home Mother, Why? I needed you, But you used me Against others "You won't throw a child out" And when I wasn't useful I was left, Waiting, Hungry, Cold, Alone, Now, I'm your age When you left Still waiting Hoping Mother, Why? Sixteen years Your silence is deafening More then the silence I'm used to hearing Snores Bottles Strangers Television on volume 3 Volume 5 was too loud Don't be seen Don't be known Hide In drawers In closets behind the clothes Why must I still live with this Mother, Why?